Embracing Incremental Change


You’d think, after all the years I’ve been knitting and writing, I’d be used to the idea that projects take time, that you can’t do everything at once. The opposite of instant gratification.

But it’s something I’m struggling with now, in the new world of isolation the pandemic has inflicted on me, with its new flow of time. If I’m not working (and I’m mostly not) and I have all this free time I don’t usually have, why doesn’t it feel like I’m getting anything done?

Because I want the comfort and satisfaction of instant gratification. I want to look at a finished thing, whatever that thing may be, and feel like I’ve accomplished something.

That’s why it’s so hard for me to start working on my novel again, even though this draft is nearly done, even though I’m physically healthy again. But mental health is a factor, too, and not having a schedule is not doing me any favors. I tried, early on, to impose one on myself, but my discipline isn’t that strong and it fell apart quickly. I read some articles about the stress of the new “time is meaningless” phase that so many of us are going through, and it led me to the difference between “clock time”–which most of us lived by before–and the “event time” that rules us now. I don’t read in the morning from 10 am until I have to go to work at noon (like I used to,) I read for a while after I finish breakfast, until I feel like I should do something else.

So what am I doing now instead? I’m trying a system of tasks to embrace the idea of incremental change.

  1. Every day I choose one thing to clean that doesn’t already get cleaned daily. The toilet or the bathtub or the bathroom sink, or I clean out the fridge, you get the idea. Of course there are things that need to be done every day–the dishes, more than once usually now that I’m cooking nearly everything from scratch–but those don’t count. So I don’t feel like I have to spend an entire day deep cleaning everything just because I’m home all the time.
  2. Every day I give myself one organizational task. It can be small, like decluttering the medicine cabinet, or larger, like tackling one of my craft shelves and constructing a set of cardboard cubbyholes for it. I’ve been crafting lots of DIY storage lately, covering shoe boxes with cardboard to make them pretty then filling them with stuff. So I can take control over my home environment and improve it without biting off more than I can chew and giving up halfway through.
  3. I’m playing Animal Crossing: New Horizons in small daily doses. Yeah, sure, for the first two weeks I was going crazy for hours on end with all the things to do and find and build, designing my house, making money to pay for the renovations. But now? Now I’m logging on and saying, “Let’s neaten up this garden area here” or “How about I re-do this room in my house with the new furniture I’ve been buying this past week” or “I should landscape this area by villager’s houses so I can build a market there.” Manageable projects, one at a time.
  4. I’ve been knitting a lot lately–another years-long pastime that should have been teaching me patience–but I’ve been spending a lot of time on Pinterest looking at various styles of wall art DIYs, and I’ve picked embroidery back up as well. I have one small project that should only take me another day or two to finish, but inspired by something I saw years ago on Craftster (before its sad demise) I’ve just started a daily stitch journal. I wrote myself 30 prompts (“use only French knots today,” “try a new stitch,” “add beads,” etc.) and I’m doing one a day, and only one. It’s improvisational and semi-random, and at the end I’ll have a cool abstract art piece to hang up, and I don’t have to get it done right now or feel compelled to work on it for hours to finish it quickly. In fact, some of the prompts are pretty short and definite, so even if I wanted to keep stitching, I’d be out of stuff to do–by design, of course. So then I’ve taken that energy and used it to do something else (knitting on cleaning or whatever.)
  5. In addition to Animal Crossing, I’ve also started playing Darkest Dungeon again, an indie game I toyed with a few years ago. As the name implies, it’s a deliberately stressful dungeon crawler, so a) even if I did want to play for hours at a time, I wouldn’t because it can get really nerve-wracking, and b) the game is designed to be slow-paced, with each dungeon leveling up your heroes slowly (or maybe killing them if you do badly) and getting you loot and upgrades slowly as well. It all builds over time until you feel strong enough to take on the final dungeon, but it’s scary as hell and of course you’re not ready yet go get stronger! I did not beat the game the first time I tried–it’s hard and I kept losing my best heroes late-game to bad decisions, so I got frustrated and moved on to other things–but knowing that now, I’ve been able to appreciate that the game is a marathon not a sprint, and that I’m actually supposed to be taking it slow.

Do I actually do all five of these things every day? Honestly, no. I do most of them most days (though I’ve only just started the stitch journal this week and I’ve stuck to it because I’m excited!)

Am I saying, “hey everybody take up embroidery and play Darkest Dungeon!” No. But I thought talking through my process might help others, somebody might read this and say “I could try that” but with their own personal goals to work towards, rather than new wall art and DIY storage and video games. Incremental change can apply to all sorts of things.

Down the TBR Hole #30

Down the TBR Hole is a (very) bookish meme, originally created by Lia @ Lost In A Story. She has since combed through all of her TBR (very impressive) and diminished it by quite a bit, but the meme is still open to others! How to participate:

  • Go to your Goodreads to-read shelf
  • Order by Ascending Date Added
  • Take the first 5 (or 10 if you’re feeling adventurous) books. Of course if you do this weekly, you start where you left off the last time.
  • Read the synopses of the books
  • Decide: keep it or let it go?

My current book stats on Goodreads are 1033 read/584 want to read. Until the middle of last year, I wanted to read more than I had recorded as read, whereas now I’m approaching twice as many finished as my TBR. In no small part to my diligent progress on Mount TBR this year (I’ve only read four library books so far) and also, this evaluation process! Time to see what ten (or so) books are up next for consideration.

#1 – Domesticated: Evolution in a Man-Made World, by Richard C. Francis

26530381I read less nonfiction these days than I used to, but I will certainly give interesting titles a second look. I’m pretty sure I saw this while browsing shelves in a bookstore, wasn’t quite interested enough to buy it, put it on my TBR instead.

I’m still intrigued by the subject, and the negative reviews aren’t putting me off this time, because the major complaint seems to be that this isn’t a pop-science book, accessible to the masses; that it’s written for biologists. Good thing I’ve got a degree in that!

It stays.

#2 – The Day Before the Revolution, by Ursula K. Le Guin

revolutionI made it a project to read the entire Hainish Cycle a few years back, and I did–at least, I read all the novels. Without a compass, map, and a pocket full of breadcrumbs it’s nearly impossible to keep all of Le Guin’s work straight–she just wrote so much! And I did not, at the time, make much of an effort to include the various short stories.

I have the massive paired anthologies of her short stories and novellas, and if this is already included there, I’m sure I’ll get to it; if not, Hoopla’s got it. It will be nice to revisit that universe–this stays.


#3 + #4 — Akata Witch and Who Fears Death, by Nnedi Okorafor

I need to be reading more works of all genres by authors of color–that’s just a fact. When I started tracking my reading more closely for all the various challenges I do every year, I added on a few stats to track my titles for female authors, authors of color, and queer authors/protagonists. I usually do great on female authors because I read so much romance, but that also means I’m reading a lot of books by white women, so…

Anyway, I own Binti by this author already but haven’t gotten to it yet. I added these titles at the same time, and of the two, I think I’m more interested in Who Fears Death because it’s adult, whereas Akata is YA or possibly even middle grade, depending on which reviewer you believe. I’m not saying all children’s literature is bad, but I’ve definitely been burned/bored by it in the past, especially recently.

But Akata is available through Hoopla, while Death is only in hard copy in my library system, and I don’t know when the physical libraries will reopen, so…

They can both stay. Conditional, as usual, to how impressed or not I am with the author after I read the book of hers I already have.

#5 – Vacationland: True Stories from Painful Beaches, by John Hodgman

vacationJust seeing this book on my TBR makes me miss The Daily Show.

This got added when the author did an interview promoting the book, though now I can’t remember if that was on TDS or The Colbert Report, because I always watched them together, right? And while I liked the author well enough in his days as a fake news correspondent, he wasn’t my favorite, and seeing this book again made me more nostalgic for the show than it did his own humor. I might enjoy this, I might not, but at this point I’m far enough removed from it that I’m less inclined to find out. It goes.

#6 – Autoboyography, by Christina Lauren

autoI definitely put this on my TBR for its premise but without noticing it’s queer YA from a romance author (duo) that I hear a lot about but have yet to read. So that’s interesting.

I’m still on board with the concept, I still want more bisexual representation, and I’ve had pretty good luck so far with contemporary queer high school romances, so this can stay. I’m disappointed to see I’ll have to wait a while to get it through the library (only physical copies again! argh!) but hopefully it will be worth the wait.


#7 – The House of the Spirits, by Isabel Allende

housePaula was amazing, but Daughter of Fortune, the first Allende fiction I tried, was profoundly okay. I’d like to give her another try, but looking over some content warnings in reviews, this might not be my best bet. Since I was given a copy of The Japanese Lover a while back, I already have my second try sitting on the shelf waiting for me, which means this can go.

If Lover turns out to be amazing, I can always put this (and any other Allende novels that look intriguing) back on the list later.


#8 – Nights at the Circus, by Angela Carter

circusMan, I am so burned out on circus fiction. But let’s give this a fair shot anyway.

I don’t remember where I heard about this book, and reading the blurb again, I guess I can see why I added it–surrealism, romance, circus nonsense, historical setting.

But holy crow, the bad reviews are bad, and the good reviews are frothing at the mouth about how transcendent this is. I might be giving up something truly amazing, but it feels more like I’m dodging a bullet. This goes.


#9 – The Mistress of Spices, by Chitra Banerjee Divakaruni

spicesWhen I reread the blurb, it still sounds awesome, with magical realism and romance and a little spice shop.

But the reviews are awful, just wretchedly awful, and lots of them are sending up red flags that I won’t ignore.

Definitely ditching this, but I will make sure I toss another book on my TBR soon by an Indian author, because I know there are a lot out there writing romances that I need to be reading. (In fact, I just picked up another work from Suleikha Snyder after enjoying Tikka Chance on Me. So I guess I already have!)

#10 – A Tale for the Time Being, by Ruth Ozeki

timeHow did I forget this was on my TBR? Magical realism set in Japan! By a Japanese-American author! Why am I sitting on this!

Of course, as with all “literary” fiction I may end up hating it. Even the stuff that looks the best on the outside can end up being so far up its own ass that I want to pitch it across the room. But I have a good feeling about this one, based on the reviews, and when I have a good feeling about a book, it stays.


I cut 4/10 this month, pretty average. As usual, if you’ve read any of these and have an opinion you want to share, whether or not you agree with my assessment, leave a note in the comments, please!

This Week, I Read… (2020 #17)

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#65 – The Dragon Keeper, by Robin Hobb

  • Read: 4/30/20 – 5/4/20
  • Around the Year in 52 Books: A fantasy book
  • Mount TBR: 62/150
  • The Reading Frenzy: Read a book that includes an animal sidekick
  • Rating: 4/5 stars

It’s hard to evaluate this as a novel, because it’s really the first act of a much larger story. Lots of new characters are introduced and an epic journey is begun–but only just, very little of that journey happens here.

It’s woefully incomplete in that regard, even by the standards of first-in-series books, especially by the standards of Hobb’s three previous trilogy-starters. So as much as I enjoyed it–and I certainly did–I can’t give it five stars. It’s simply not a good place to end the book.

That being said, I found a lot to like. Alise may have started out a standard unhappy housewife type, but she certainly manages to grow past that. Thymara, as an outcast young woman, is both sympathetic and believable while not pulling too obviously on the pity vote from readers. She treads the line between accomplished and uncertain of herself with grace. Sintara’s sporadic dragon POV scenes are interesting. I even like Leftrin–he’s no Brashen Trell, but my heart has room for more than one mostly honest, rough and manly ship captain. (Speaking of Brash, it was lovely to see him and Althea and especially Paragon again, though their cameo was brief. Most of me is glad it wasn’t longer, it could have read as cheap fan service, but a small part of me still wants more because I loved them so much.)

I can’t argue with the pacing, either, this was shorter and more snappy than any of Hobb’s previous works, and I don’t mind that one bit. Problem is, I think that came at the cost of leaving everything unfinished–there is not even one story line here that resolves in any way, it’s a cliffhanger in all respects.

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#66 – Fate’s Edge, by Ilona Andrews

  • Read: 5/4/20 – 5/6/20
  • Mount TBR: 63/150
  • Rating: 4/5 stars

I like this best yet of the three novels of The Edge, but it’s still got some issues.

I knew I would finish the series because at this point I will read anything by Ilona Andrews, so I dove in without reading the blurb or knowing too much about it–just as I’m sure I will soon when I read the final novel. So I did not know I was in for a fast-paced heist flick/rom-com mashup with clever banter and constant danger. As far as that goes, it’s fun, though it does lead to a flaw I’ll come back to.

The big and lovely surprise was how large a part in the story George and Jack played, and I’m completely enamored with those boys, they’re amazing.

As far as the leads go, I liked Audrey right away and liked her even better when she stood up to Kaldar repeatedly and seriously, choosing to protect her heart rather than indulging in a quick fling. Their flirtation is the perfect combination of clever and hot, but she wisely decides it’s not going to keep her warm at night forever, and at that point in the story, she’s undoubtedly right. It’s the sign of strong character work that I can root for the heroine of a romance novel when her stance and aims are in direct opposition to that romance, you know?

So here’s where the fast and fun pacing falls flat–Kaldar’s complete about-face about marriage in two pages of introspection. I got to that and thought, “seriously, you’re 100% committed to the idea of marriage now?”

Don’t get me wrong, I like Kaldar. I like him far more here than I did in Bayou Moon, where he was one of a million faces of Cerise’s family and was characterized entirely by his light fingers and betting magic. Here, he gets a personality to go with those, and I liked that personality. But I don’t really believe he faced-turned from a freewheeling bachelor to loyal husband material in two pages. I just can’t. Do I want him to have a happy ending with Audrey, yes, of course I do. Do I think the one they got was entirely earned? Not really. Super-rushed.

The Birchbark House

#67 – The Birchbark House, by Louise Erdrich

  • Read: 5/7/20
  • The Ultimate PopSugar Reading Challenge: A Western
  • The Reading Frenzy: Read a book with a three-word title
  • Rating: 3/5 stars

There are children’s books that are still enjoyable reads as an adult, and then there are children’s books that are definitely for children only, and I think this is one of the latter. I found the writing to be simple to the point of boredom, and if I hadn’t been listening to this instead of reading it, I might have given up when I got to the point where every character in the family had to shout the same words at the little brother for being a bad kid, twice, in sequence. I bet in print that takes a whole page, and I groaned through it playing out in my ear but soldiered on.

And it’s not really a fair criticism that I was bored the style of a book aimed at eight-year-olds. What about the story? Well, it’s really episodic in nature, with every chapter practically being it’s own self-contained chunk, especially when a chapter is mostly about another story an adult is telling the main character. I found some of these chapters more interesting and compelling than others, but for most of the book I really failed to see how they were connected and wondered what the point of the book was–were we really just following a family through a year of their life without any sort of structure beyond the seasons?

Eventually, though, the narrative threads tying the story together became more prominent. Little Omakayas suffers through her grief after the family’s bout with smallpox, finds out her origin story of being a rescued orphan–the experience that gave her immunity to the illness this time around–and resolves to become a healer because that’s what calls to her and what the spirits are shaping her to be.

By the end, I realized that despite my eye-rolling at the style, I was attached enough to these characters to care what happened to them, and to find Omakayas’ ending satisfying and fitting. I’ll admit my white ex-Christian self has more than a little cynicism that prevents me from properly appreciating the more spiritual aspects of the story (and the culture it comes from) but it seems a very comforting ending, to have that soft and buoyant belief in the spirits of nature to ease you through your grief. I don’t understand it on anything but the most surface level, but I respect it, and it’s not at all a bad message to send to children, than life goes on and that our departed loved ones are still with us in other ways.

I probably would have loved this book wholeheartedly when I was the right age (though it hadn’t been written yet) and I agree with many others who feel like this is the Native American answer to the Little House series and its “brave pioneers” story. Even if I couldn’t enjoy it fully as an adult, I think this book has great value for what it is and what can show children who might otherwise only get one side of the historical story.

This Month’s TBR: May 2020

May 2020 TBR

It looks like a lot, but really, it’s not so bad. I only needed eight books this month to cover my bases for my various challenges, so I added three semi-optional reads to the pile, since I just went to the trouble of finding out where I stood on my outstanding series.

For the challenges:

  1. The Dragon Keeper, by Robin Hobb
  2. The Complete Cosmicomics, by Italo Calvino
  3. Ancillary Justice, by Ann Leckie
  4. Room, by Emma Donoghue
  5. The Birchbark House, by Louise Erdrich
  6. The Bone Witch, by Rin Chupeco
  7. The Murmur of Bees, by Sofia Segovia
  8. The Necessary Beggar, by Susan Palwick

To finish up two outstanding series:

  1. First Frost, by Sarah Addison Allen
  2. Fate’s Edge and Steel’s Edge, by Ilona Andrews

It’s a good thing wrapping those up is part of the plan, because Ancillary Justice and The Bone Witch are both series starters, and while it’s possible I won’t want to continue with those, I have a strong suspicion I will. As for other series, The Dragon Keeper moves me along Realms of the Elderlings. It’s what I’ve started with, and so far I’m enjoying it!

End of the Month Wrap-Up: April 2020!


I’m going to keep this short; as I’m writing this, I’m in the process of recovering from Covid-19, and even if I’m not suffering the insane levels of fatigue I did at the start, I still get worn out pretty easily.

(Yes, I have it, and yes, it’s a mild case. I am able to isolate, I haven’t required medical attention, and though I won’t be tested unless something new goes wrong, I’m 99% sure that’s what sent me to bed for most of this week.)

I read 16 books in April.

I made no significant progress on any of my writing projects (including keeping up with blog posts that weren’t my book reviews.)

I was doing great at exercising, running three times a week, until I got sick. I hope to resume that soon, but I know I’ve got to give my lungs some time to rest first. In a few days (hopefully) I’ll meet the CDC criteria for ending my isolation and can at least start taking walks.

I have also done a lot of knitting and watching TV.

May Goals: Read lots–the TBR post is coming Wednesday. Keep knitting. Try to write again, ideally on Fifty-Five Days, because it’s frustrating to be so near the end of a project (or at least one of its stages) but not have the mental energy to work on it. Get back to walking/running. Bake more things!

This Week, I Read… (2020 #16)

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#60 – Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children, by Ransom Riggs

  • Read: 4/23/30 – 4/25/20
  • Mount TBR: 59/150
  • The Reading Frenzy: Read a book featuring time travel
  • Rating: 2/5 stars

At the heart of this is a really cool concept–the deliberate time loop–that I love and wish I could read more about. Only, I’m not going to keep reading the series, because Jacob might be the most irritating male YA protagonist I’ve read in recent years. It didn’t make me like him that in his “normal” life he was so resentful of being the child of a wealthy business family that he actively tried to get himself fired from his job by being the worst employee he could possibly be.

Over the years at my various adult jobs, I’ve worked with teenagers who for various reasons don’t want the job they have (usually because their parents are making them work, though, not because they’re rich jerks,) and they don’t deserve books written about them. They deserved to be fired for being the disruptive little punks who make everyone else’s jobs harder.

So I didn’t start the book off on a good footing with the most important character, and the rest of the book didn’t really improve my opinion of him, especially the “I have nothing in my real life to keep me there” attitude. Dude, you still have parents, and they care about you, and lots of people don’t have that, so maybe stop being a whiny entitled douchebag for ten seconds.

The mystery of what/where/how takes far too long to get off the ground, though when it finally does, I will say the atmosphere is engaging–I do feel like Cairnholm and the children’s house are real places I could visit (if I wanted to) and the author never forgot the importance of time of day and weather for setting a scene. The barrage of peculiar children thrown at us with brief explanations of their powers and even briefer indications of their personality, though, could have been handled better. (I know from other reviews that I’m not the only one who got a strong X-Men vibe from this.) Also, I’m a huge fan of romance, but not when it’s Jacob getting entangled in a weak romantic subplot with his dead grandfather’s ex-girlfriend, thank you, time travel. Could have done without that. He even confronts her at one point with how he’s realized she sees him as a stand-in for his grandfather, and that cools her off a bit, but then a page or two later they’re kissing, and I was like, “Well, I guess this is happening now, they’re both idiots.”

But the biggest disappointment for me, even more than not liking or relating to the protagonist on any level or not wanting the bad romance or not liking the pacing, was the simple fact that I don’t feel like the photographs add to the story, when that’s supposed to be the fundamental underpinning of this style. The description in the narrative of the photograph almost always came first (I can only recall one time it didn’t, towards the end) and by telling me what the subject of the picture was, by describing it in words for me, I built my own picture in my head (you know, what reading is) and then turned the page to see a photograph or three that looked very little like what I was imagining, and it took me out of the story every single time, having to accept that I’d imagined it “wrong.” So, I don’t know, put the pictures first? Start the chapter with all the photos that are needed for that chunk of the story, let them intrigue me, let me wonder about them, then tell me organically as the story unfolds why they’re relevant? Because the way this is presented seemed utterly backwards to me, and that, more than anything else, is what has killed my desire to keep going with the next book, no matter how cool the time loop concept is.

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#61 – Wasted Words, by Staci Hart

  • Read: 4/25/20 – 4/27/20
  • Around the Year in 52 Books: A book by an author you’ve only read once before
  • The Ultimate PopSugar Reading Challenge: A book by an author with flora or fauna in their name
  • Mount TBR: 60/150
  • Rating: 4/5 stars

Okay, I’ve never read Emma. I did see the ’90s movie adaptation, but not since the ’90s, so my memory of the plot is basically “Emma is an interfering busybody who eventually wises up and gets out of her own way.”

So this retelling got that 100% right, even if there are smaller plot details that don’t line up, honestly I wouldn’t know.

In some ways this is a difficult book for me to rate, because on a personal level, it was too relatable. I am not Emma-the-meddling-matchmaker, but in the past I was very much Cam-the-anxious-girl-who-is-terminally-insecure-about-relationships. I am high-strung. I have been treated for both depression and anxiety. I catastrophize at the drop of a hat. It’s a deep and deeply personal character flaw of mine springing from my mental illness, and I hate Cam for it the same way I (try not to) hate myself for it. We always dislike people (fictional in this case, but it still holds) who show us the worst of ourselves, the parts we either try to hide or simply won’t admit exist. Well, I’m perfectly aware of this flaw of mine, and having it shoved in my face wasn’t pleasant.

At the same time, it did make her sympathetic (to me, obviously not to other reviewers who can’t stand her) so it’s a really strange relationship I have with this character throughout the story. I don’t like her, but somehow also love her, because she’s so relatable (again, to me, for very specific reasons.)

So if Cam is too much like me, then Tyler is too perfect. Seriously, he never does anything wrong. He’s the most standup of standup guys, he’s warm, emotionally available, thoughtful. Certainly doesn’t hurt that he’s ninety feet tall, muscular, and handsome, but those typical romance-hero attributes were there not so much to make him a shallow, cardboard Romance Hero, but to be reasons that Cam thought she wasn’t good enough for him. The real Tyler is his personality, the caring man who keeps trying to read different books on Cam’s recommendation because she’s so passionate about reading and he wants to see if he can be too. He would still be my new book boyfriend even if he weren’t a six-six former football god.

He’s incredible. And that’s the problem. I get why Cam doesn’t feel good enough for him, because the story makes her incredibly flawed and him basically flawless. The only thing he does “wrong”–and this is an utterly forgivable wrong–is to cut off Cam in their fight towards the end by drawing an emotional boundary. He’s done with her wishy-washy-ness because it keeps hurting him, and he doesn’t want to drag himself through that again. Does it suck that it’s a misunderstanding and she’s not communicating well and she’s actually trying to explain why she’s a complete disaster so they can get it out in the open and maybe move past it together? Yes. But is he justified in saying “enough’s enough, I can’t do this anymore” when he’s reached his limit of getting dragged through the mud by her constant insecurity and doubt? Also yes! So he still really isn’t doing anything wrong.

Again, I don’t remember Emma well enough to know if the same is true of her own love interest, whose name I don’t even remember. So this fundamental imbalance between horribly flawed heroine and utterly perfect hero could be a holdover from the original, but whether it is or not, it kind of undermines the very story it’s trying to tell, that Cam is “good enough” for Tyler and just needs to believe it of herself, when the story as presented shows she’s demonstrably a worse person than him, whatever her good intentions.

I still really enjoyed reading it, flaws and all, and I’m sure I’ll come back to the good parts when I need a pick-me-up, but I do really wish Tyler had had a flaw or two to even things out between them.

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#62 – Girl Gone Viral, by Alisha Rai

  • Read: 4/27/20 – 4/28/30
  • The Ultimate PopSugar Reading Challenge: A book published in 2020
  • Rating: 5/5 stars

It was awesome and I loved it. I think this is my favorite Rai romance novel yet!

I listened to this audiobook while I was ill, and basically did the first seven hours almost continuously one day, then as soon as I woke up the next morning I lay on the couch and listened to the rest. As far as the audio goes, I liked the female narrator just fine, and the male narrator was AMAZING but that’s mostly because he has the deep, gravelly-but-soft voice I like best, so your mileage may vary. On to actually talking about the content!

I’m pleased to see I was right in my hope after The Right Swipe that Katrina gets her story told next, because I liked her then, at least as much as we were given of her. Here she shines, an even better anxious-style protagonist than Sadia from Wrong to Need You, my previous favorite novel by this author. (Also nice to see Gia turn up, will we get her story someday? That would be fun!) Katrina has already taken the first steps on her long road to recovery, but this section of her journey is still plenty bumpy and interesting. I loved her, and while I don’t generally look at romance heroines as aspirational (they can often be pretty far from it!) I identified with her more than usual, and she makes me want to work harder on myself.

Jas is a damn fine hero for this story as well. Part of me was just screaming “You had me at bodyguard romance!” There’s an inherent yearning in those, with the combination of close quarters and safekeeping and devotion. But Jas goes beyond the base level of the trope by also being an incredibly conflicted but thoughtful man, who has a character arc about his own identity vs. his family’s expectations and disappointment, one that perfectly compliments Katrina’s arc about self-improvement, battling mental illness, and rising above past abuse.

One of my major complaints about this novel’s predecessor was that the individual character arcs of the leads didn’t mesh well and completely overshadowed their romance arc, but here in Girl Gone Viral, all three story lines fit together perfectly to form what’s honestly the best romance I’ve read so far this year.

63 - Fake Out

#63 – Fake Out, by Eden Finley

  • Read: 4/29/30
  • Around the Year in 52 Books: A book by an Australian, Canadian or New Zealand author
  • Rating: 3/5 stars

This was really a mixed bag for me. Fake dating is a trope I generally enjoy, but the setup here was really stretching my disbelief, and also made Maddox out to be a complete ass. Damon was much more likeable to me (though part of that might be their respective narrators–I didn’t like Maddox’s much at all, especially how fake his female-character voice was, on top of Maddox himself not being a decent human being at the start of the story.)

I did like how open Maddox eventually turned out to be towards his orientation, and how he’s not sure about his label at first, though he does eventually warm up to the term “bisexual.” Part of his resistance to it was that he had a false belief that you need to have a 50/50 split between attraction to men and women to qualify, and he didn’t, but he educates himself past that. What I didn’t like? The “education” is really ham-fisted for the reader as well, and throughout the book we’re tripping over random bits of homophobia and heteronormativity, and there’s only the slightest, off-handed admission that trans people exist and that bi people are allowed to be attracted to them.

It’s trying to be inclusive, and it mostly is, but there’s still a lot of mess that could be cleaned up in that regard.

As for the actual love story, I really like that this fake relationship didn’t turn into a real one too quickly, especially not at the event itself that sparked the whole thing. I like that the two of them had to work for it and that the book spanned months instead of weeks (or even just days, as romance novels sometimes do.) Even if Maddox continued to irritate me in a lot of ways right up until the end, I did want to see him and Damon get their HFN ending, and they both get a fair bit of personal growth along the way to get there.

So it wasn’t great, but it wasn’t terrible. It was a little messy. And I don’t think I care about going on with the series, because I don’t like either of the side characters involved enough to be invested in their setup for the next book.

Also, slightly unrelated but disappointing, I really thought I was clever when I figured out that Maddox’s aunt was scamming him with her medical treatment, only she wasn’t. Seriously, in every single scene, she always gets someone else to pay for her cab or her meal, it happens repeatedly and obviously. She’s constantly described as a free-spirited hippie type who makes her living as a traveling psychic, which already makes her a scammer to anyone who doesn’t believe in psychics. She stays rent-free at Maddox’s place while he crashes with Damon. Maddox offers to take her to appointments and stuff but she always declines. You know, like she’s lying about the entire thing to take advantage of him and her clinical trial doesn’t actually exist? But then in the later parts of the book, she actually does seem to be sick, and that red herring gets dropped like it never existed. It was weird and off-putting to have this elaborate ruse playing out in the background and have it turn out to be 100% on the level.

64 - Lost Lake

#64 – Lost Lake, by Sarah Addison Allen

  • Read: 4/28/20 – 4/30/20
  • Mount TBR: 61/150
  • The Ultimate PopSugar Reading Challenge: A book with a character with vision impairment or enhancement
  • Rating: 3/5 stars

It’s been quite a while since I read Garden Spells, but this novel brought back that same dreamy feeling, the possibilities of magic and hopefulness and love, the gentle tide of age and things lost to the past.

This didn’t wow me the same way, partly because this style isn’t a new experience now like it was then, but also partly because this felt far less focused. More characters are sharing the spotlight, and while I liked them all well enough, I would have preferred to focus more tightly on fewer of them, to get deeper histories, to get more emotional development. I suppose for a novel that’s as much about saving a place as it is the lives of the people within it, it’s okay that the lake is as much a character as any of the people, but the richness of the setting does come at a cost.

At times I felt there also wasn’t really enough tension to keep the story moving forward, because neither romance subplot is particularly gripping, and the overall plot of saving Lost Lake is a meandering path that spends most of the book hung up on a single character’s indecision, rather than some dire happening that needs to be dealt with now.

All this means it’s a very soft, comforting, easy read, and there’s a lot to be said for that, but I don’t think that aura of gentleness necessary had to be exclusionary of any tension at all.

Getting Serious About Series 2020 #2

I had meant to do updates quarterly, but I missed doing this by the end of March, for perhaps obvious reasons. So I’ll make my check-ins every four months instead. Let’s see how I’m doing!

Waiting for the Next Book to Be Published

Series in Progress (books read/total books)

I Own The First One (or More) But Haven’t Started Yet

Then, because I regret not doing this last year, a list of every series I’ve completed (or abandoned for whatever reason) since starting the tracking:

Off My List in 2020

  • Red Rising Saga (Pierce Brown) — DNF’d the first book, can’t/won’t go on
  • Micah Grey (Laura Lam) — read the first one, gave it 3/5 stars, but the story ended on a weird cliffhanger I didn’t like, don’t really want to go on
  • Miss Peregrine’s Peculiar Children (Ransom Riggs) — read the first one, gave it 2/5 stars, have no interest in continuing

There are a few more “I read the first book but that’s it” but they weren’t listed in the last round, so I’m skipping listing them now–mostly romance novels with one notable exception, The Night Watch, because I didn’t realize that was the first book of a series.

My big series goal for the year is still Realms of the Elderlings–I’ve read two more so far and I’ve got one up in the queue for next month–but looking over my progress here, if I want an easy win, I should probably go for The Edge next, I’m half done, and being paranormal romance by one of my favorite authors, they’ll be quick-ish reads. For similar reasons, hitting up Lost Lake would be a good choice, because it’s the second the Waverley Family duology, and I did love Garden Spells, and I could use something cottagecore-esque right about now.

(One of the reasons I sat down to do this today is that I’ve finished my April TBR and have a few days left before May, so I wondered if there was anything I should get to in this little window of total reading freedom!)

Let’s see how much of this I can knock out by the end of summer–I’ll post another update at the end of August!



This Week, I Read… (2020 #16)

55 - Johannes Cabal the Necromancer

#55 – The Necromancer, by Jonathan L. Howard

  • Read: 4/16/20 – 4/18/20
  • Mount TBR: 55/150
  • The Reading Frenzy: Read a book with a black and white cover
  • Rating: 2/5 stars

I seem to take issue with books that put their apparent protagonist in the title but then don’t bother to make the story about them. This isn’t the first time I’ve been disappointed by the expectation that if a book is titled for a character, that the book should actually be about that character–I slammed The Strange and Beautiful Sorrows of Ava Lavender for precisely the same issue.

Johannes Cabal is not the protagonist, he’s the frame story surrounding a bunch of vignettes about the people who come to and suffer from his evil carnival.

The story is about those people, and it’s about the carnival. It is only tangentially about Cabal, and he’s not even the most interesting character in his own story line–that honor goes to his brother Horst, who despite being a vampire, is a better human being than Johannes ever has been. (A fact that Horst makes tediously clear during their final confrontation.)

But disappointment from the misleading title aside, could this structure have produced a good novel? Possibly. Only it didn’t, because the interest curve throughout the entire middle was almost entirely flat for me, with a notable dip for the one chapter devoted to little Timothy’s school assignment detailing his weekend, which was a phonetically written nightmare to the point of painful reading, and boring to boot. The rest of the stories weren’t quite that bad, but they were mostly humdrum, and they present a quandary about the larger plot that I’m not sure is solvable–the book seems to race by, not feeling like it takes the whole year Cabal has been allotted for his wager, yet including more vignettes to fill out the space would only lengthen the tedium for the reader.

The ending didn’t really save it for me, despite being about Johannes again, despite culminating the year of drudgery the carnival went through, because I wasn’t invested in Johannes, because I wasn’t impressed that he managed to trick Satan, and because the reveal of his apparent motivation for retrieving his soul failed to be the grand romantic gesture I think it was supposed to be. In making that motivation a surprise, in cloaking his real reasons behind a drier and more plausible excuse this whole time, I think it made him a weaker character and a less relatable one.

On a more positive note, there is one thing this book does well, and that’s tone. The atmosphere of this setting is unmistakable and pervasive, and though it owes something to its forebears–the acknowledgments cite Ray Bradbury for quite obvious reasons, and the viewing of evil and Hell throughout is strongly reminiscent of Good Omens with a slightly less tongue-in-cheek vibe–it does still manage to stand on its own as distinct from the pieces it pays homage to.

But in the end, I am not invested and will not be continuing the series.

The Picture of Dorian Gray

#56 – The Picture of Dorian Gray, by Oscar Wilde

  • Read: 4/18/20
  • Around the Year in 52 Books: A book featuring an LGBTQIA+ character or by an LGBTQIA+ author
  • The Ultimate PopSugar Reading Challenge: Read a banned book during Banned Books Week
  • The Reading Frenzy: Read a book set in London
  • Rating: 2/5 stars

What a disappointment compared to the other Oscar Wilde I’ve read.

I knew the vaguest outlines of the story going in–just the concept, really. I actually hadn’t had the ending spoiled for me, amazingly enough, so I hung on until the end even though I had stopped enjoying myself before the halfway point. (Not that I didn’t figure out the most likely end for Dorian ahead of time, and I was pretty close to right.)

But all the wit and humor I expected, even in this dark tale, were absent, or came in the form of racism and sexism. Product of its times, and all that, but the antisemitism, while relatively mild and confined to a short time frame, is impossible to miss; and the misogyny is deeply grained into everything about this story. At first, I thought the attitudes about women (as well as all the philosophies about life I didn’t agree with concerning the blessedness of youth and beauty) were confined to Lord Henry, who was very clearly not a good person and was not meant to be respected as one. But the misogyny also rears its ugly head in the extremely casual treatment of Sybil Vane and her ultimate fate. Women in this story are disposable intrinsically, beyond anything I can forgive as simply being in-character for the reprehensible Lord Henry as the corrupting influence.

I simply don’t remember this much misogyny being present in The Canterville Ghost, and I doubt I’d find it if I went back and looked.

While I can appreciate the queer subtext, and I can appreciate the deconstruction of the importance of youth and beauty, I can’t endorse the whole package it comes in. There’s too much wrong with it from a modern standpoint to call it “good,” no matter what sparks of genius lie within the mire.

(Also, did the entirety of Chapter Nine need to be a tedious and extensive catalog of everything Dorian became obsessed with during the years of his fall? Every jewel he ever bought, every tapestry he ever admired, every foreign musical instrument he purchased for outlandish sums, every crazy or sinful historical figure he ever wished to emulate? It put the plot of an already stretched-out story on hold for far too long.)

57 - Craving for Love

#57 – Craving for Love, by Violet Vaughan

  • Read: 4/18/20 – 4/19/20
  • Mount TBR: 56/150
  • Rating: 1/5 stars

DNF midway through Chapter 12. I have read some really bad romance novels in my time, but this might just be a new level of ridiculousness.

I’m going to outline what I read to illustrate just how scattershot and full of holes this “story” gets.

Chapter 1 – Heroine nearly crashes her car twice, busts the headlight, gets home, gets tipsy, calls her ex to help fix the headlight, seduces him instead.

Chapter 2 – He stayed the night. She makes him breakfast before he has to go plow the snow, falls back asleep, and when she wakes up decides she isn’t leaving town today after all, she’s going to stay and go skiing with her ex. She considers having a quickie in his truck in the slopes parking lot.

Chapter 3 – They go skiing. They go back to her place. He fixes the headlight. She asks, “Are you sure you don’t want to have my babies?” [the reason they broke up, last summer apparently, not even recently, was because he doesn’t want kids] He says, “I love you” and leaves. She breaks down.

Chapter 4 – Jump to three days into her drive to Colorado from Vermont (though it doesn’t really say how long that is after Chapter 3–did she leave the next day?) Stops at a gas station, looks through a realty magazine to find a local realtor, makes an appointment. When she gets there, she says “I need a job and a place to live,” asks about cleaning jobs, offers references, continuing, “I can start tomorrow, and all that I ask is that you help me find a place to live.”

a) Realtors aren’t temp agencies or help-wanted ads. Their business is not to find people jobs.
b) What was her job before in Vermont? It was never mentioned before she left.
c) Yes, their job is to SELL you a place to live, not to recommend the boardinghouse his secretary (assistant? receptionist? not clear) happens to run. ISN’T THAT CONVENIENT.

Scene break, then she’s cleaning a bathroom in a rental unit because she magically has a job now, and we meet her new friend/coworker, and apparently some time has passed because she says it’s nice to be getting enough sleep at her new place because of the curfew. (Yeah, it’s a female-only boardinghouse, no drinking, no smoking, no guys, with a curfew. I didn’t realize this was the 1940’s.)

Chapter 5 – Dinner with her new friend and the friend’s husband. HERE WE MEET THE NEW LOVE INTEREST. Who is a surfer-dude-turned-ski-instructor, and he likes kids, and we know he likes kids because there’s a sickeningly cute scene with him and the two kids of their friends. Also, he’s their godfather. Surfer invites her to go skiing.

Chapter 6 – They go skiing. He’s impressed enough that he introduces her to his boss and now she’s magically got a job next winter as an instructor instead of a cleaner. That was easy, wasn’t it? They keep skiing, get hot chocolate, hang out, and exchange numbers so they can go skiing again.

Chapter 7 – Second ski day (date?) but Surfer brings friends, one of whom is an obvious Jealous Woman Who Wants Him So Don’t You Dare Make a Move on Him. All the other friends are super hyped that the Heroine and Surfer are hitting it off, though, because “he needs a girlfriend.” At the end of the day, they kiss.

Chapter 8 – Gloss over a few weeks of kissing but nothing more vigorous in the physical department, Heroine is getting antsy. She heads over to his place with wine and a sexy outfit with plans to seduce, but in a scene so badly written it’s embarrassing to try to describe so I won’t, suffice it to say, things go badly for her while he thinks everything is A-OK.

Chapter 9 – Heroine is semi-avoiding Surfer for a bit, but then her ex shows up in town (of course he does??) and they all run into each other on the slopes. She’s happy to see Ex, but then when Surfer tries to kiss her in front of him (and the class of kids he’s teaching) things get weird. Heroine takes Ex out for a meal afterward and finds out he’s already dating again too, though his girl’s still in Vermont, but it might be serious enough that she’d follow him to Colorado if he gets a job there. Heroine helps him with a place to live by giving him the realtor’s information.

Chapter 10 – Surfer gets super drunk because he’s so pissed about Heroine’s betrayal about the kiss and her ex, she goes over with fast food for him. He drops the L-bomb but says she doesn’t have to say it back yet. She sleeps over without them sleeping together.

Chapter 11 – Chaste birthday party/sleepover with Surfer at their friends’ house, because they’re watching the kids while the couple is away on an anniversary trip.

Chapter 12 – AN AVALANCHE KILLS THE HUSBAND ON THEIR TRIP. A few pages to deal with that, then a scene break where a month has passed since his death, and Heroine decides to take her friend/the widow out on a picnic.

Yeah, that’s where I stopped reading. The book is 36 chapters long, and one-third of the way through, there’s a gratuitous death of a minor character. This isn’t a romance, it’s a soap opera, with drama for the sake of drama, quick scene changes, no coherent theme, no character arcs, just PLOT PLOT PLOT PLOT PLOT with no break to let anything develop. It’s ridiculous.

58 - The Perks of Being a Wallflower

#58 – The Perks of Being a Wallflower, by Stephen Chbosky

  • Read: 4/19/20 – 4/21/20
  • Around the Year in 52 Books: A book with a neurodiverse character
  • Mount TBR: 57/150
  • Rating: 1/5 stars

I can certainly see why so many readers have identified with this book and why it’s so beloved, but it left me really cold.

The best thing I can say about it is that Sam is amazing and we should all be so lucky to have a friend like that in high school. (If I were her, I would not have put up with Charlie’s nonsense for as long as she did.)

There are a lot of worst things I could say, because my two major problems are both fundamental, base-level issues. First, that the narrative style is flat and childish, beyond even what I would expect from young man who (obviously) has difficultly communicating his inner life to others. The letter-writing was aiming for “fifteen years old and unsophisticated emotionally” but actually came across as “seven years old and simply doesn’t have the vocabulary to express himself.” It made what could have been an engaging story pretty tedious.

Second, this story is trying to do far too much. I’m not saying no one’s life is this messy in reality, but in just over two hundred pages, we’re getting every ’90s after-school special crammed into a single book. We open with Charlie reeling from a classmate’s suicide; he sees his sister physically abused by her boyfriend; he witnesses a rape at a party; he watches one of his best friends betrayed by his secret gay lover, then later allows the friend to kiss him multiple times even though Charlie himself is not attracted to men; he smokes, he drinks, he has a really bad trip on LSD; he has a chance to have sex with his female best friend, at her initiation, but it goes terribly wrong. Oh, yeah, then the ending reveals Charlie himself is a victim of molestation by a family member, in case there wasn’t enough going on.

Most of those issues individually would be serious enough to be the primary thematic element of a novel, but here we’ve got them all shoehorned in the same one so that none of them has a chance to breathe or develop. The rape in particular pissed me off, because once Charlie tells a friend about what he saw, he finally figures it out, that what he witnessed was rape, and he says it out loud, and the friend agrees….and that’s that. There are no consequences, there’s no action taken even though Charlie saw a crime committed, it’s just a learning experience for him, a moment of realization on his road to deeper emotional maturity. That nameless girl’s pain and humiliation don’t matter except that they taught the male protagonist something.

Even if that one thing were forgivable to me (which it’s not, but even if it were) the rest of the book isn’t much better or more nuanced in how it handles these serious life issues. And what’s worse for me personally, reading this as an adult twenty years removed from high school but reading about the time period when I did go–I was a freshman only a few years after this book is set–dragged up a lot of emotions from that time in my life, mostly unpleasant ones, but in the end didn’t offer me any real catharsis to resolve those feelings.

59 - The Duchess War

#59 – The Duchess War, by Courtney Milan

  • Read: 4/21/20 – 4/22/20
  • Mount TBR: 58/150
  • Rating: 4/5 stars

What? I rated something by Courtney Milan fewer than five stars?

I still loved it, don’t get me wrong, it just lacked something for me compared to the other books of hers I’ve read so far.

It’s difficult to put my finger on what, precisely, because it’s not any less well-plotted, or lighter on social justice issues (I was quite surprised this one was about unionizing! in a historical romance!) It was well-paced, and I even appreciate that the marriage of the leads doesn’t signal the end of the story, which is a common HEA ending. No, in this one it’s just a step in the journey, and it’s perfectly understandable that the characters have more issues to resolve even once they’ve tied the knot.

I think part of it is that the supporting cast felt weaker than usual. Lydia’s best-friend-ness and Oliver’s half-brother-ness were pretty standard and thin, and Minnie’s great-aunts didn’t have a lot of personality.

But really, I’m hunting for the reason I was less than 100% satisfied with what was still a solid romance I enjoyed reading. Off to put the rest of the series on my TBR.

This Week, I Read… (2020 #15)

51 - The Night Watch

#51 – The Night Watch, by Sergei Lukyanenko

  • Read: 4/8/20 – 4/11/20
  • Around the Year in 52 Books: A book set in a global city
  • The Ultimate PopSugar Reading Challenge: A book set in a city that has hosted the Olympics
  • Mount TBR: 51/150
  • Rating: 2/5 stars

I am unimpressed on several fronts. This never came together as a cohesive work for me.

Style: The constant ellipses, both in dialogue and in regular text, gave the work a pondering, unfinished air. Everyone constantly trailed off their sentences. I don’t know enough about how Russian people speak to each other to know if this is a cultural thing, akin to (but obviously not the same as) the Japanese tendency to leave anything out that’s obvious from context, right down to the subject of a sentence. I’ve heard that the English translation is quite faithful to the original, so I wouldn’t be surprised if stuff like this is present, but my framework for Russian culture and conversational style is lacking. And if it’s simply a stylistic thing on the part of the author, well, I found it irritating.

Structure and Pacing: I was wondering after the first hundred and fifty pages why it seemed like the story was already half over, and it turned out, that’s because this is not one novel, it’s three, with each “part” being a complete plot arc. But it’s not really three novels, either, because you couldn’t read the second two without reading the first. Honestly, by the end, it felt more like a full season of a serialized television show than anything else. I know this has been adapted into a movie (I have not seen it) but I question whether it wouldn’t be better as a regular show or even a mini-series. This isn’t one story, it’s several tied together by one “season-long” thread.

Characters: Anton is okay for a protagonist in terms of level of development, but everyone else is a prop. His boss is a stereotype; his partner Olga had potential, with that cool backstory, but she nearly disappears from the story in parts two and three. Svetlana is a MacGuffin first, vague girlfriend second, then back to a MacGuffin in the end. Egor is a symbol at best and a plot device at worst. All of the minor characters are one-dimensional, and there are a lot of them. (As a side note, I know physical description isn’t everything, but I don’t think I could describe *any* of these characters for you, and if someone out there is drawing fan art, I wouldn’t recognize a single one of them either. I don’t like incredibly detailed descriptions that go on too long, but give me something!)

World-building: This had a lot of cool ideas that never gelled into an actual world. I’m all for going light on exposition, and this did–new concepts were introduced as they were needed, not front-loaded, but the problem was, none of the magic seemed well explored. The grade system for magicians was a loose hierarchy at best when it felt like it should be rigid, and it was never clearly defined what differentiated one level from another–the boss would make statements moving a person up the hierarchy based on their actions, but it was different for every individual, seemingly. In addition, a few concepts I felt were only present when they were handy, but ignored the rest of the time–like discovering in the third part that some magicians can “conserve” weather effects, like memories almost, and bring them back so that others can experience them. Neat idea, and it’s totally wasted as a false air conditioner in a car on a hot day. Was that magical feat really not useful anywhere else in the story?

All of these things combined to create a near-total lack of investment on my part. How am I supposed to feel at the end when Anton is having his internal crisis and revelation and making his big move, when it’s all supposedly about his love for Svetlana, when she’s a paper-thin plot device that we’re constantly told he loves but we never see any evidence of their relationship until it’s basically over? How am I supposed to follow the leapfrogging betrayals and moral quandaries of the Light Magicians and the Night Watch when I could never get a full grip on how the world worked? And why should I even bother to get invested in figuring out any of the intricate maneuvering when I know Anton will break it all down for me in solid pages of internal monologue if I just wait long enough?

52 - Tikka Chance on Me

#52 – Tikka Chance on Me, by Suleikha Snyder

  • Read: 4/12/20
  • Mount TBR: 52/150
  • The Ultimate PopSugar Reading Challenge: A book with a pun in the title
  • The Reading Frenzy: Read a book with a title beginning with T (excluding “the”)
  • Rating: 4/5 stars

It’s cute and mostly does what it sets out to do, though its short-short novella length does hamper it some. The story it was telling felt too big for the length, in part because a) we’re sent straight to the end of the setup, with the implied weeks/months/who-knows-how-long of sexual tension skipped over in favor of jumping right to the chase; and b) Trucker’s backstory/plot twist are WAY more than 72 pages can handle with any depth or nuance.

I don’t have any issues with the basic idea of the story, or the twist, but trying to fit that all in this small a work seemed overly ambitious.

So the length is my major complaint, because I definitely wanted more of this story. Both leads are charismatic in their own ways, and their chemistry was good, and the sex scenes themselves reasonably hot. Given the short time frame, I do actually like how the author handled what would normally read as insta-love–by giving both characters doubts about the intensity of their feelings and the whirlwind nature of their brief affair, it’s a realistic “I think we could fall in love if things were different, will this work?” rather than a silly “it’s been three days and we’re madly in love and JUST TRY AND STOP US” situation.

This is my first work from this author, and while I do wish this were a little more developed/longer, I liked the style and the characters, and I’m looking forward to giving her another try in the future.

53 - The Bridges of Madison County

#53 – The Bridges of Madison County, by Robert James Waller

  • Read: 4/13/20 – 4/14/20
  • Around the Year in 52 Books: A book set in a rural or sparsely populated area
  • Mount TBR: 53/150
  • Rating: 1/5 stars

This? This is the book that dominated the media in my early teenage years and spawned the movie I managed never to see because it was so over-hyped? This piece of self-aggrandizing, pretentious tripe?

I never think stories about adultery are worthwhile, though I was actually not aware Francesca was married. Somehow I got the impression, via nearly thirty years of osmosis, that she was a widow, and I am sad to have been wrong, BECAUSE ADULTERY IS NOT INHERENTLY INTERESTING AND CERTAINLY NOT ROMANTIC.

The only good thing I can say about this book, and this is a big thing in its own way but small compared to the massive flaws in all other aspects, is that it’s nice to see a piece of media portraying a woman in her forties as an attractive, sexual being, without making her some kind of punchline or predatory character (like the fad a while back for cougars, ugh.)

But everything else about his is bad. The frame story–stupid and forgettable. The style–overly repetitive, simple without being well-crafted, sprinkled with poetry to make you think it’s smarter than it is. The bittersweet ending–unsatisfying, and downright stupid because of her children’s reactions to the big reveal, god, her letter was so gross. I would not want to read a letter like that from my mother! I would not be grandly swept away by the “romance” of her past adultery!

Seriously, there are ways of setting up a tragic love story that don’t rely on cheating, if that’s your aim. And clearly, here, beautiful, heart-wrenching tragedy was the goal, only I didn’t actually care about either of these bland, over-stylized adulterers in this bite-size story that wants all the credit without doing any of the work.

54 - Trick

#54 – Trick, by Natalia Jaster

  • Read: 4/14/20 – 4/15/20
  • Mount TBR: 54/150
  • The Reading Frenzy: Read a book that features royalty (or a crown on the cover)
  • Rating: 5/5 stars

Five stars for how much I enjoyed it, maybe four stars for actual strengths/flaws.

So let’s get those flaws out of the way. I found the style too florid for my taste at first, and it required some getting used to. I’m all for original verb choice, but there’s a line, there’s a point where you stretch a word’s meaning too far, and this story crossed that line frequently. Also, I found the references to Briar’s father’s death came too often, constantly poking me with its pseudo-mysteriousness. I knew we wouldn’t find out what happened until she had reason to tell Poet, and I was completely right in that, so the reminders of what was being withheld needled me.

Lastly, the world feels really contrived, to the point where I wonder how these kingdoms actually function. If they’re based on the seasons, and that season reigns in their land perpetually with little variation, then I would think trade is going to be just about the most important thing to these monarchs, this setting. There’s even a small breakdown (in overly lyrical prose, of course) of what the primary products of each kingdom are–yet in other places in the story, it’s emphasized that there’s actually very little trade and they’re mostly self-sufficient, with all travel to other realms needing to be approved by the Royals. Okay, so I know there are real-world cultures past and present that can and have survived in perpetual winter, but if the option to trade is there, why wouldn’t they take it? Why wouldn’t the people of Winter want grain and apples from Autumn? Why the strong and artificial boundaries? (Answer: plot reasons.)

With my complaints out of the way, let’s get to the good stuff. STRONG CHARACTER-DRIVEN ENEMIES-TO-LOVERS ROMANCE. Calling Briar and Poet actual “enemies” might be overstating things, but they definitely don’t start off friends. They’re a perfect match for each other, because they both project an entirely different personality to others than who they truly feel they are inside, though for different reasons, and with diametrically opposite “false” personalities. Briar strives to show herself as a serious, responsible person, a young woman who may not inspire love in her future subjects but at least can earn their confidence. Poet is flamboyant, licentious, often lewd, and entirely over the top in everything he does. But as soon as things go wrong, as soon as there’s a reason for the two of them to see beyond those exteriors, the reality of who they are inside is quite different, and those two inner people mesh surprisingly well.

Since I value well-developed characters and romance based on emotional growth far more than I care about perfect world-building, this gets five stars despite my complaints, because by the end, none of them really mattered beside these two lovebirds getting their happy ending.

This Week, I Read… (2020 #14)

Fool's Fate

#50 – Fool’s Fate, by Robin Hobb

  • Read: 4/1/20 – 4/8/20
  • Mount TBR: 50/150
  • The Reading Frenzy: Read a tome (500+ pages)
  • Rating: 4/5 stars

I would say that this feels like a fitting end to Fitz’s story, because he gets his happily ever after, except that I know the series isn’t done with him yet. I don’t know what happens in the last set of books, but I know they exist. When this was published, it must have felt like a solid happy ending, though–it wraps up almost everything left hanging about Fitz and the Fool and the Six Duchies chunk of the larger story that spans all the books so far. In that, I am satisfied and have no real complaints about the plot.

I am, however, miffed at the incredibly slow pace of this novel, even for a Hobb epic fantasy tome. Compared to those that came before it, the first half drags and drags and drags. It’s the reason this took me eight days to finish, despite being interested, despite wanting the rest of the story. This 900-page monstrosity of a novel could have easily been at least 100-150 pages shorter, and everything I would cut comes from the first half.

Did we really need that much detail and repetition of Thick’s seasickness and cantankerousness? Did we really need half-page-long paragraphs where every sentence uses the words “ice” and “cold?” Did we need to go through the sea voyages almost day-by-day to wallow in Fitz’s and Thick’s misery?

That section could have been tightened up a great deal without losing anything important. It took me six days to slog through the first half of the novel, and two days to finish it, because that’s where the good stuff was–the Pale Woman, the Black Man, the dragons, the culmination of the Forging subplot from the original trilogy, Nettle and Molly and Burrich. You know, the people and plot lines I actually care about far more than constantly reading about how cold and wet and miserable Thick is.

(I don’t actually dislike Thick, if anything by the end of this book I like him more. I just think he’s given far too much screen time, stretching out the most boring part of the book to ridiculous proportions.)

I’m going to keep going–of course I am–but I hope future installments will be pleasingly epic instead of bloatedly so.